Day 26.

What is up with the weather! And what's up with school's not closing?? Haha. Still as hard as it is for us, how much harder is it for those without a home or even a proper meal jacket, or shoes? I've been kind of annoyed at the uncomfortability of having my aunt and cousin take up my room for the month. It was annoying not having easy access to my things and just a place to call my own. Knowing today would be an all day at school kind of day and knowing I have no money to buy lunch I wished I wasn't broke so I could BUY lunch. What a waste of money when I could be making my lunch and using that lunch money for something better. I remember telling off my friend because he's a splurger, but what about me? So I ended up making two egg sandwiches for lunch and linner. This morning when I saw that it was raining I decided to take out my big puffy jacket. When I didn't like how it looked I decided on not wearing it. As I was walking home, I really wondered what I did before my rain boots. Gotta love em! At the end of pretty much every block is either snow or a huge icy puddle and I remember thinking how inconvenient it was to just walk around it. Now I can just step through! I forget how blessed I am to have the necessities and find myself wanting and wishing more. And when I get so caught up with myself, I lose sight of those in need. Fail. Because of the snow, classes after 4 were cancelled. Great! I got out of class early and as I was packing up to go home I realized I had one more sandwich. I knew I wouldn't have an appetite for it once I got home cause I could have hot, "better" food at home. I figured and hoped I'd see someone asking for food on the way home. I did, but does that really count as an act of love? My motives weren't entirely for the good of the one in need. Come on, fool you can do this.

So I've been trying to love God more and it hasn't been successful. I want to get back into reading the Bible and doing devotions. I usually do it at night, but I tend to have a problem when I procrastinate and I end up skimming through it or being too tired to do it. So I wanted to try and wake up early and do it. For the past week, I haven't been able to wake up in time. Here's to being back in my room and regulating my sleep schedule and being productive!

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