We can be mean people. You know when you're mad/annoyed/down to the last itty bitty piece of patience and you just want to hurt the person who made you feel that way? You just wanna lash them and tear them down cause words can do just the trick. We can show love by being patient and by biting down on our tongue so we don't fall into that temptation of intentionally hurting someone to make them feel small and for us to feel bigger for a short time. Haha sounds like today was bad, but it wasn't. I took my cousin out so he could get some stuff for his friends before he goes back to Korea. When I have to go around the city with people who don't have unlimited MetroCards, I like to have a game plan in order to minimize money spent on transportation. My cousin mentioned that he wanted to get those gross flavored jelly beans for his friends so while on the train I asked him if he still wanted to. There was some miscommunication and I thought he said he didn't, but he did..which I found out an hour before I had to leave and we were downtown but had to go uptown. I was about to go off on a rant, but I breathed. Boy, does oxygen work! So I called my brother to see if there was somewhere closer to downtown that sold the jelly beans. He found a place and gave me directions and there was some misunderstanding again and I thought he gave me wrong directions so I started to get really impatient and I noticed how my volume was increasing. I kept telling myself he's doing me a favor and helping me, breathe, breathe. Then again, during small group, I felt like I was trying so hard to be confident and LEAD! but people kept going off on tangents and I would try and bring it back which works for a while then another tangent and again and again. I just couldn't understand how people could be serious and on point one second and then act a fool the next. It is mind boggling. But I have a hard time balancing seriousness and joking around, so I tried to loosen up and laugh a bit you know be myself. Successful some points and then drew back some other times. PATIENCE PATIENCE PATIENCE! LOVE LOVE LOVE!
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