Day 1.

January 01, 11!

I've been waiting to use this picture for a while now, and today actually felt like a swirl. I was really hyped up last night. Having reflected on the past year and after thinking about the different things to look forward to in 2011, I got really excited. I think it's my first time being so excited for the new year. It felt like a very out-of-body experience.

Today was a fail because I was being selfish. I was all up on my high chair cause I could eat meat today so all I could think about was the steak I was gonna eat. Friends came over for dinner and my mom prepared so much for us. The entire time I just watched or did my own thing and I didn't even offer to help with the cooking. I ate happily and didn't offer to clean. Fail. After eating, we just watched tv and I fell asleep. They left around 11:30PM and then it popped in my mind that I was not all that loving today. Then I sort of went hunting for a good deed to do like I was on a deadline. :( That's not what this is about.

I'm not so sure if what happened is considered an act of love.. I was about to just forget about today and start tomorrow. I got online to check my email and a friend I've been avoiding had emailed me. I figured this was my open and I decided to message him and we talked a bit. Something's been bothering me for a while and I tend to just keep it to myself and avoid the situation/person until it smoothes over. I learned over the summer what it means to speak the truth in love. To keep someone accountable. So I decided to tell my friend what was going on and apologized for having avoiding said friend. I'm no longer bothered by my friend so no more avoiding!

Tomorrow's another day.

HAHA.