Day 88.

I've been kind of all over the place with confusion the past couple days. Oh fun.. I've been trying to keep it to myself. I didn't want to admit cause I feel like once I say it, it makes it real-er. But I couldn't take it anymore and asked my nonbrother brother for help. I texted him first to see if he was busy - good thing he wasn't! So I asked him if we could talk on the phone cause it would just be faster and he called me almost immediately. This was my first phone conversation that lasted more than 5 minutes in..over a year? Yeah, I'm not a phone talker. We talked for the past 2 hours and it was just GOOD catching up/bonding time. We talked about my confusion then he shared his and we just gave each other advice. And it was so easy to be real with him. He's really like a brother to me..a bit more than my own brother only cause I actually talk to him about personal things. There are times when he gets on my nerves and I'm sure the same goes for me, and there are times when I flip out on him, but he's a patient and good hearted kid. One of the bests in my life. I'm really thankful for him and for putting up with me for as long as he has :) Love you brobro!

Oh also have to mention another good friend. Sorry, bad memory! This is the good friend I mentioned before. Now that he's back from NYCUP we've been talking via email. I shared with him how confused/worried/scared I am about not knowing what the heck to do after graduation. WHAT DO I DO?! I don't know what I want to do, but whatever I do do (haha doodoo..) I want to make sure that it's what God wants me to do. Anyway in the past two days or so he's given me advice, reassuring me, encouraging me, and praying for me. He's been a real comfort and he knows his stuff! THANKS FRIEND!

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Oh and just something cool that happened today. I went to Hunter to meet up with a friend and fellow blogger :) and we decided to meet on that bridge on the 3rd floor. While I was waiting these two Korean ladies approached me. They asked if I was Korean and then asked if they could share a little booklet on the Four Spiritual Laws. I only knew of the booklet cause I've seen KCCC folk have it so I asked them if they were with KCCC and they were. By then my friend found me, but I was already talking to the two ladies. So they asked us if we go to church and we said yes. They asked if they can have some time and share the Four Spiritual Laws. Since there were two ladies, one went with my friend and one went with me. I've been for a while wanting to connect with my Korean roots, but didn't know how. I think this was God's answer. So the lady I was talking with, Charlotte, shared how she's with KCCC from Korea and she's here on a missions trip. I think it's called a stinter or something? So she takes English classes in the morning and then comes to Hunter to evangelize. Cool! That takes guts. She asked me what I was studying and when I told her she was so happy/surprised. She was also a visual arts major and she has yet to meet another art major (in Hunter/her time in New York at least) AWESOME! THEN, she went into talking about where God has been leading her to use art so she's in (or was..my Korean comprehension isn't the best and she was talking fast with big words) a grad school program for art therapy. CRAZY! I'm a visual arts and psych double and people always said art therapy since it's pretty much the only connection between the two. I'm not thinking about doing that, but it was just cool. It just reassured me that art can work towards a bigger/greater cause. At the end, we exchanged contact info to meet up some time in the future. To talk more, to learn Korean/English from each other, or something else..but I just wanted to share cause I felt this meeting was awesomely planned by God :)

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