Days 49-51.

So I spent the last 2 1/2 days with some Fordham friends. Every year, with the Asian Pacific American Coalition (the Asian American student club at school), a couple of the members go to the East Coast Asian American Student Union. I wasn't as excited to go this year because I haven't been hanging out with school friends as much and my awareness of Asian American issues have been down the drain, but having attended the past 3 years and this being my last made me want to go. I figured spending the weekend with them would be good. I did get to hang out with friends I've known since freshmen year, get to know some new friends better, and catch up with a friend from Bing. It was good, but my patience was being stretched and I had a hard time trying NOT to judge. Oh my gooooness. I felt there was a lot of behind the back smack talking, hate, assumptions, f bombs, pride/feelings of superiority going on the entire fracking weekend. I wanted to get away from all of that, but at the same time I knew I had to be there in order to get anywhere near being loving..at the same time I was constantly reminding myself not to judge them. I couldn't understand why people were getting so angry/upset over something that wasn't worth their time and energy. Why take as little as 5 minutes to as long as all weekend hating on someone and talking smack behind the back of someone you won't see again? I still don't understand the use of the f word. What is the point of using it?? What good does it do?? Either in anger or just to emphasize something good..WHAT'S THE USE?! Am I missing something here? Every other word..neeeow..f bomb!

It was really hard this weekend, buttttt

! I need to work on my patience I guess. I can't go around passing judgment, thinking I'm any better than them. Sin is sin. Someone supaaa wise just gave me some advice which was in regards to something else, but applies nonetheless.."we can't control what others do, but we can always control how we respond to it"

HAHA.