Days 134-135.

For a while now I've been having a hard time remembering to love. How bad does that sound..the past week, I had to write "love" on my hand to remind myself to love. Without a simple reminder, I just forget and naturally live my life selfishly and look out only for myself. Please pray for me. I don't want to settle and stay lazy and unloving.

As I think about the past couple weeks, I realize how much my brother has grown. He's more of a tough love kind of guy, but if you really look at his actions, he's really really great. I mean his attitude isn't always the best or most tolerant, but he's matured. I'm glad he isn't the very sensitive, emotionally obvious type of guy! Anyway yesterday, my family and a few church friends went shopping. We went to get lunch before, and the moms were joking around asking who would pay and even though he's currently jobless, my brother offered to pay. Not sure if he really thought he would pay, but in the end he did and he is ALWAYS paying for myself and my cousin cause we're younger. Good looking out brobro!

Today (and pretty much all week), I was replaying Justin Bieber's "Baby" and singing/rapping to it. I know it was bugging him plenty, but he remained his cool haha. It still surprises me how much he knows me. I spent all weekend just chilling and knowing that I hadn't studied zip for my final tomorrow, he kept telling me to study, but I kept avoiding it. Friends came over today and I knew I wouldn't be able to study with them around so I started to clean my room instead. I never clean my room unless I have a lot of things on my mind or I need the space, but this semester, I still didn't clean even if that was the case. He knew I was just cleaning to procrastinate some more and after I finished cleaning, I went back to wasting time singing to Bieber. It was almost midnight by then so to make sure I would study, he threatened to shoot me with his bbgun whenever he saw me slacking/smiling/laughing. I've been pretty productive since! Thanks for the tough love :)

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